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My HOCD started when I over heard my college teacher say to another member of the class that she thought i was gay. I also have a GF who i love and am attracted to. Just like you mate im big on sport, I play basketball 3 times a week, train at the gym alot ect. Hiya mate, I can completely relate to what ur sayin. Am i just suppressing gay thoughts or am i just panicing over nothing? Any help would be greatly appreciated I have never been diagnosed or test for OCD however i have always been asked whether i have had it by teachers and friends alike as i am extremely hyperactive and always want to be the centre of attention. Now when i look at any man i panic and question do i find them attractive and why not. I cannot tell me girlfriend about this as although we are both open-minded she will definately leave me. It seems like the episode in the steam room flipped something in my head making me believe i was gay. My head makes me believe that i fancy all men even though i know this is not true. I have never had a dream about sex with a guy and am disgusted with my self for questioning why i dont find men attractive. I still have sex with her on a regular basis and this reinforces my belief that i am not gay for only a little while. I also still get turned on when i kiss and see my girlfriend naked and then question why i find this attractive to which i cannot find an answer. I also looked at straight and gay porn to see if any arouses me and this doesnt work. I now keep playing scenarios in my mind to see whether i am gay. Im pretty sure i am not gay as i have never been turned on by a naked man before and have been in this relationship for five years and loved every second of it (including the sex). However in the car on the way back to the hotel i questioned why i looked at his penis and began to think i am gay. We both laughed it off an continued with the conversation.
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Recently on a rugby tour to canada we were in a steam room, like we always did after games, and i accidently saw my mates penis. I play rugby regulary and enjoy spending time with my mates. Hi all I consider myself to be a straight man who has been in a loving relationship for around 5 years.